Sunday, November 30, 2008

Here! Also, a request

TOM left this morning, and took the very last of my sore throat with it, so I woke up this morning feeling good. I cleaned my apartment and put the vacuum round yesterday too, which always leaves me feeling better about everything.

How was Thanksgiving? I maintain my relief that it's not a gauntlet I have to run out here, and will save my food terror for its appropriate Christmas tour. I hope you all enjoyed the Black Friday sales, I know Scale Junkie did anyhow! I envy your sales, I miss just going out and shopping even if it is what got me into trouble in the first place. I shouldn't miss shopping with all the things I've bought this week really, but that was for other people rather than myself. The bright side is that I've almost finished all the Christmas shopping I have to do, just my little brother's Christmas gift and my dad's birthday present left to get (my friends will get things from Malaysia when I get back as their presents).

I have decided definitely to do Phase 1 again.I have a gained a little again this week and want to nip things in the bud before the get out of control. I was toying with the idea in the back of my mind and writing it here yesterday really solidified it for me. I had eggs with onion and mushrooms for lunch. I think the major problem for me this week is going to be the fact that it's exam week so the teachers expect to go out to lunch because this is one of the weeks they actually have time to. It's really tempting as it breaks up the boredom of the day, but I don;t think I can do it next week, physically, mentally or financially. I told my supervisor on Friday that I would go to lunch with her tomorrow, so I will, but after that I'm going to have to try telling them that I need to save all my money for KL and see if that can hold them off.

I've just remembered that I meant to go into town today and grab a secret Santa gift for next week and some Christmas decorations, but it's almost dark now and it's cold outside. Looks like I'll be doing it either after school (so it will still be cold and dark I suppose) or next Saturday.

Does anyone have any contemporary romance book recommendations? I'm usually a regency girl, but I also like Janet Chapman, and I really liked Lisa Kleypas' move into contemporary too. Someone other than Nora Roberts please!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Haven't forgotten you

Just TOM and not having much to say, I'm thinking of going back on SB Phase 1.

Be back soon.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Salvation

I was fully prepared to ignore weigh-in this week. It's really been terrible, and at one point this week I stepped on the scale and saw a number over 110KG, which made me pretty miserable. Apparently not miserable enough to put down the cookies, but then negative reinforcement has never been much of a motivator for me.

Just now I jumped on the scale before I could convince myself not too. I didn't really want to see that number again but I figured I should know even if I don't admit it here. I was little scared it would lead to me hitting the supermarket again but as that wouldn't be any worse than what I was already doing, I decided I may as well know the damage.

Imagine my relief when the scale threw me a 109.2KG. I never thought I'd be happy to see that number again, and a gain at that! It's 0.2KG/0.5LBS higher than last week, but that's all and I count myself as very fortunate. It means that I'm juuuust back in the 240s which sucks, but it also means that I don't have to change my snowman.

It's been a very up and down week emotionally, swinging between rationally knowing that gains happen and it will be easy to straighten things out again because I know what I did wrong, and completely losing hope that going through this is worth anything because it will just end up like all the other tries. Thankfully I'm currently a little closer to the former than the latter at the moment, but we'll see how it goes.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Hurray!

It's pay-day! Best day of the month!

I ducked out of school during lunch because I'd taught my one lesson of the day so didn't have anything to get back for. I walked to the bank and after a few calculations decided to send 140,000 yen home. The exchange rate, which has been dropping like a stone recently, had another dip today because of the stock market drops, so I really wanted to do it today. If you don't do it before 3pm it's classified as the next business day, which means you have to take your chances with the number tomorrow.

I also paid my rent and updated my pass book. A pass book is a little book you can get updated at the ATM, it's like a bank statement because they don't send them to you here. Checking my balance I figured out that once I'd factored in my bills and utilities I have about 10,000 yen a week to live on (about... $100? It's hard to give an exact amount because the rates are changing so rapidly), which works out perfectly!

I know I've been going on about money a lot just recently, mostly because of my lack of it, but it feels so good to be this close to finishing with everything. My parents are sending me money for Christmas so that will mean I can make a payment in December even though I'm taking what I would usually save to KL with me. Depending on how much they send me I may be able to just make the same 140,000 payment in January (that's the maximum I can really send without causing myself problems) and then it could be over and I can start saving. My savings are going to be my other big goal of 2009 (you can probably guess what my first goal is yeah?). With my next contract period definitely being my last I need to save as hard as I can so that I can afford a place to live when I get back to the UK.

Of course, this all depends on me not using my credit card and thus upping the balance. Sadly with Christmas coming that isn't entirely possible. I've already bought some presents, but I still have 5 more and a birthday present to buy with my UK funds, my friends will be paid for with my Japanese money so I'm not overly concerned by that. I think (given what I'm getting) that this will add another £200 to my total.

3 day weekend!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

One hour

I'm a procrastinator, as many people reading this will probably know. After I posted my last post about how bad I was feeling, I checked my email. I thought about what I was going to wear to work tomorrow (the choices were limited, laundry day has come and gone). I felt bad about getting fatter. I considered eating the yogurt I have in the fridge. I decided against it and wondered what I should make for dinner.

I then thought 'what the hell am I doing?'.

I felt bad. I had that oppressive, slightly panicky feeling weighing down on me the more I sat and thought. The more I tried to ignore things I was supposed to be doing. They weren't going away, they weren't even at the back of my mind! They were making me more miserable as I tried to ignore them, convincing myself I was happier refreshing my Google reader while time trickled away.

If any of this sounds familiar, do yourself a favour. Take an hour.

Set a timer if you want, and say to yourself 'for this hour, I'm going to start the things I said I'd do today'.

My 1 mile WATP workout takes 20 minutes. Could I do more? Yeah, probably. Would I do more if I told myself 'right, I'm going to do this workout and then do everything on this list'? No, I'd go back to refreshing my Google reader and never start.

I gave myself an hour, and in that hour I did my 1 mile, cut my hair, put on laundry, took a shower, and took out my scallops to defrost for dinner. The washer has just finished so I'm going to go take my washing to the coin driers next door because the weather turned hurt-your-face cold while I was holed up in my apartment and I don't fancy waiting a week for it to dry itself.

I have other things to do. I want to throw some ingredients in the slow cooker so my dinner is ready for tomorrow, and I have to grab a lesson plan online for my class because I think I'm finally going back to school tomorrow. But the other things I was going to try and tackle in that hour? The de-cluttering and vacuuming I had planned on that didn't get done? Not a problem, because I have an hour tomorrow.

Even if you achieve nothing. Even if you turn your Internet off (this is a good idea! it helps, trust me!) and stare at a blank open document for an entire hour (err... hi NaNoWriMo!) and don't write a single letter, dedicate your time. If you have a list and you only finish two things on it, it's OK. If you only manage to start one thing it's OK! When the timer goes off put it down, put it away, leave it for tomorrow. You'd be amazed the momentum it gives you. That panicky feeling eases.

I feel better.

This week: FAIL

Okay, I was doing alright until this week.

This week has been out of control.

I've binged. more than once. Because I've been sick I haven't been at school, so I haven't been walking, which would mean that this week would have been tough for me even if I'd been eating perfectly. And honestly, I was disappointed by the last weigh in, and it put me in a bad space mentally. I've been using the fact that I moved my mattress into my living room to be closer to the heater (thereby filling the space I usually work out in) as an excuse to not work out.

Technically I should given back my new snowman with the number I saw on the scale this morning, but I'm not going to do that. I think some of it must be bloat, so I'm hoping if I'm careful it will disappear. I only have a few days until weigh in so I don't see me posting a loss, but if I'm careful maybe I can make it a maintenance. I don't want this to become a spiral. I've hated where I am so much recently, even a small loss has helped me. Even though I'm heavier than I was this time last year, it's not by much, and getting closer to fitting in my old clothes made me feel like I was making progress. Like it wasn't hopeless. I'm trying to hold on to that feeling.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I'm a terrible, cynical, person

My supervisor arrived and was the loveliest thing ever.

She brought me a bag of groceries filled with fruit, yogurt, salad, juice (fresh fruit and things are really expensive here!) and a big bottle of water because she didn't think I would have been able to walk to the store because it's turned so cold the last couple of days, and I need vitamins to make me healthy. She told me not to worry about my lessons, and said that I could take sick leave instead of personal (vacation) leave so 'take a good rest'. This sounds kind of obvious because if you're sick of course you should get sick leave, but many Japanese people take vacation when they are ill, it's just the culture.

I'm a mean, nasty person and I shouldn't judge so quickly. >_<.

Hovering

My weight is hovering just above my official WI and I'm having trouble getting it down. On one hand I've been at home sick for the last three days, so I'm not getting my walk to school in, which may be making a difference. I also had something other than stew yesterday, for the first time since I bought my slow cooker two weeks ago. I think this has upped my calories a little so my body has to adjust. Or I have to go back to stew.

Today I have some little meat balls that are sold for use in nabe, I'm going to cook them with onions and yellow peppers and add them to a pasta gratin I'm making. I'm not sure why but I had a sudden craving for it.

My supervisor is coming after school today 'to check I'm OK', read: to check I'm still sick and am not just taking the opportunity to have a few days off. It's something I get really annoyed with here, the constant looking over your shoulder, as if I can't make the judgement myself. It's my body, I know what I can do and what I can't at the moment, and given that she's not a doctor I'm not sure what she's hoping to prove. I think not lying in bed looking like death warmed over anymore means to her that I'm fine and faking it, but even if my fever is gone my voice hasn't recovered yet so I can't go back to teaching classes yet.

I texted her yesterday to tell her I wouldn't be in today and probably not tomorrow (I had classes today but none tomorrow, so I don't see the point in dragging myself to school to sit at my desk), but I would definitely be in Friday to teach my third year class. Which then prompted her visit. Which means I'm now going to have to strain my throat making pointless conversation until I've proven whatever it is she's looking for.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Christmas Challenge WI

Today I lost 1.2KG/2.6LBS, and oddly, I'm kind of disappointed.

Now, I'm not crazy most of the time. I know that 2.6LBS is not a bad loss by any stretch of the imagination (and really, can any loss at all be considered 'bad'?), but two days ago I weighed in at 108.4KG, which would have put me on track for an almost 4lb loss, which in turn would have tipped me over the 10KG lost mark. Now, thanks to what I think was probably the fact that I ate out last night (I didn't eat unhealthily, or too much, but it was restaurant food and that tends to make a difference), I didn't make that milestone. I think it is just a blip for today because of last night, but I wish it had been a blip for tomorrow instead! I was thinking of just saying 'screw it' and putting my low weight down but then decided not to.

So, let's focus on the good that weigh-in did me, shall we? Today I:

Got a new melting snowman
Made it over the 20LB lost mark
Made it past my halfway point
Made it into the 230's (just!)

I think at this point I won't be making it to my final Christmas Challenge goal because I wasted so much time (err... hi October!), but I would like to lose another 10LBS if I can manage it so that I can be in the 220's when I leave on holiday.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

I admit it

Okay, I'll be honest, I caved.

You can't imagine what it's like, stuck in the apartment all day with nothing to do. I need distractions to stop me thinking about it. But I didn't have any, the temptation was too great and now it's too late.

So it's best that I come out and admit it, especially as you'll all be able to see the consequences.

I changed my blog to a Christmas template.

I swore to myself I would at least wait until Nov. 18th. That's Mickey Mouse's birthday, and the day we had to start giving the 'happy holidays' greeting when we answered the phone at the Disney Store, and I was sooo clooooose. I don't want to get Christmassy too early because it makes it anti-climatic, but I can't help it. The weather has turned a little cold again, and there is Christmas stuff everywhere here because it's only used as a commercial holiday, and TCBOTB is putting up new Christmas themed layouts every Monday. On the plus side I have restrained myself from buying actual decorations for my apartment so far, but come December I am going for it.

I texted my supervisor earlier to tell her I wasn't coming in, she was very understanding, making me feel guiltier. I hope I haven't screwed things up for them.

EDIT: Today I woke up to bright sunshine that, at one point, had me turning on the aircon. It seems the weather is displeased and wishes to show me that summer is not yet over. I have changed the layout to something less festive.

Breaking news: still sick, still fat.

I saw a bump up on the scale this morning, but am keeping calm because I saw the same thing earlier this week and it was followed by a drop later.

I'm bored, and kind of sick of my own company, but I don't feel up to going out to others or entertaining, so I guess I'm just going to have to bear it. Even if I decided to go out today, my friends are all really busy this weekend. I was supposed to be out with them, but obviously that didn't happen.

Sigh. I don't know if I'm going to be up to going to work tomorrow and that makes me feel guilty, the kids have their exams in two weeks so there isn't really time to rearrange their lesson. I'm hoping the teacher can just use my lesson plan himself so they don't miss out, as I've taught it with him once before so he knows how it goes and has the hand-outs to copy. My throat doesn't hurt so long as I take the medicine regularly, but my voice is still shot and I have developed a hacking cough not at all helpful to the classroom teaching environment. Bah, I don't know what to do. If I'm not going then I need to call my supervisor tonight to tell her.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

4:47am:

The time my medicine wore off to the point that the pain was unbearable and I had to get up to take my pills.

Unfortunately with so many pills it's quite a process. I had one of my throat candies to numb it slightly, and gargled my blue rinse. Then I had to make oatmeal for breakfast because I have to take the other three pills after food. I waited for the pain in my throat to disappear and went back to bed at 5:30am to get some more sleep. Thank God it's Saturday so that I can actually do that. I got up again around 12:30, having had some more sleep.

I know I've been whining a lot the past week, so I'd like to focus on some positives for a moment.

1) Being on this medication is forcing me to eat three proper meals a day. I'm quite bad at this, especially the timing. If it's a school day I often don't have time, or if I manage to get breakfast in I'll forget lunch or something. If it's the weekend I'll usually sleep through breakfast. I don't quite know how it will work when I'm back at school because the kids here eat lunch quite early and I'm suppose to have pills every 8 hours, but we'll see.

2) My illness has been awesome for my weight loss. This may be related to number 1, and may be related to the types of food I'm eating now. With the difficulties swallowing I was going to oatmeal and stew, a lot of the junk stuff is difficult to eat because it's rough on my throat. I'm really hoping it's not just sickie-dehydration, if I bounce back up afterwards I'm going to be really sad. I will possibly expect a maintenance week though.

3) I weighed myself this morning and saw a tiny (0.2 kg) drop from my low point so far this. After I got up from my second sleep I got on the scale again and the loss was much bigger, which felt good. It always amazes me how much proper sleep can make a difference to the reading.

I'm actually looking forward to the Christmas Challenge WI this week!

Friday, November 14, 2008

The verdict in in

The bad news: I have tonsillitis. Or at least they think I do, and have taken a swab of the white things on my tonsils 'to incubate' so they can verify it's not anything else.

The good news: I have drugs to go with it.

I love how I don't have to be scared when I go the doctors here because my insurance covers anything over 5000 yen ($50). They gave me three kinds of pills to take after meals (a pain-killer, something to bring down my temperature, and...? something else? I don't remember what it does), some INSANELY BLUE drops (like, toilet cleaner blue) to mix with water and gargle, and some throat candies to help reduce the inflammation in my throat (oh, that might be what the third pill does too...). It ended up costing me 2600 yen so I really can't complain. On a scale of 1-10, 1 being a cold 9 and 10 being Strep and Mono, I'd rate this at about a four. They did say if I took the pills and they didn't seem to be working (they gave me 5 days worth), to come back for an antibacterial injection, which may bump it up to a 6 in my head.

I'm going to go and eat a little stew so I can take my after meal pills, hopefully they'll help.

After I'm better I must remember to buy a new toothbrush so that I don't end up re-infecting myself.

...

Dear Canadian prison,

WTF?

Love and kisses, me.

I've finally caved and asked my supervisor to take me to the doctor tonight. My throat doesn't seem to be getting any better and the white spots on my tonsils are still there. It's now been five days and the over the counter medicine I bought is gone and doesn't seem to be helping anyway. I'm going to feel really stupid when he tells me it's a cold and to get over myself because I just have to wait it out, but I'd rather go and have it checked to make doubly sure it's not strep or something.

I put honey in my oatmeal today because people keep telling me to drink honey and lemon tea, but I hate lemon tea. Conclusion? It helped a little (I felt slightly less raw after, whether from the mixture or from the fact that oatmeal is warm and soft I don't know), and I don't like honey.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

The cold that never ends

I called my supervisor last night and told her I wouldn't be coming in to work today. I have been going to work this week because I have had some lessons to teach, and with the exams coming up they would be difficult to rearrange. Today I wasn't scheduled for any lessons though, and while I technically could have gone and sat through it as I have been the rest of the days, there didn't seem much point in it if I wasn't going to be missing anything. She seemed OK with it, and I told her I would come in tomorrow so that I wouldn't miss my third year class.

I'm still losing, but I'm hoping it's not just dehydration or something because I'm ill. I don't want to see it bounce back up afterwards.

I woke up and my throat was kind of awful (maybe dry from the night?), I can feel my body having to make an effort when I swallow now. I looked in the mirror and holy crap my tonsils are swollen and covered in these white pus spots (which, incidentally, look about as attractive as they sound). A quick search online convinced me I wasn't going to die or anything. I don't have the other symptoms or fatigue that would lead me to believe mono or anything serious, so it's just a bad cold/flu thing. I was going to go to the English speaking doctor in Taki, but the trains to the station next to his surgery are super-irregular, so I would have been waiting hours to get back.

I have about the equivalent of $80 in my bank, which has me breathing a little sigh of relief. I know all my bills have go out for this pay period, and I've just been shopping for groceries (once I had counted up the money in my purse I realised I had more than I thought) using just the cash I had on me, so I think I'm fine until payday on the 21st. Money has really been worrying me this month because I didn't pay attention at the beginning of the month and spent far more than I thought. Being forced to live frugally, coupled with deciding to cook at home more, has made me realise how cheaply I am capable of living though. I mentioned before that I'm actually thinking of sending extra home on payday and just scraping through the month again. It sounds a little crazy considering how worried I was about it this time around, but payday comes on the 19th next time because the 21st is a Sunday so it finishes a little earlier.

I can't wait until I've finished paying everything. It's going to be awesome. Looking at my figures I've revised my numbers a little and think with a bit of restraint I could be finished paying stuff off as early as the end of January! This is mostly because both my parents have decided to send me money as my Christmas present this year, so I can make a payment in December using that instead of skipping a month (the usual funds are coming with me to Kuala Lumpur). I almost want to leave my credit card here so I can't run it up while I'm on holiday, but I don't want to risk something happening and being stuck somewhere without any money.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I don't understand

This weekend it went overcast and cold enough that it had me thinking of Christmas. This morning I had to snake an arm out of my warm bed to flick my halogen heater on before I could drag myself out of bed and into my plushy winter robe. This afternoon the sun had been shining on my apartment all day so I had to open all my windows after I got home. SENSE, IT MAKES IT NOT.

Japanese winter is weird. The sun stays warm, so as long as it's shining the cold (oh so cold) air doesn't really bother you too much. Outside that is, inside my school is noticeably colder due to the lack of direct sun in the hallways. But then if you get in a classroom facing the wrong way you're stifling. I'm kind of looking forward to when it goes (and stays!) properly cold. Not that it will stop me complaining, but at least I'll be able to dress for it.

I'm at that horrible state where my throat feels really dry, I've been drinking water but it doesn't seem to be helping. It made me really hoarse in my first year lesson today.

And as this is suppose to be a weight loss blog: I broke the next decade! It was still there when I got home from work, so we'll see if it goes down tomorrow.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Thanks

Thank you all for your well wishes. I felt pretty crappy today, but I was teaching so I couldn't really call in sick. I dropped into the drug sugi when the other ALT and I went to the dollar store for English Club snacks though. A dose of medicine actually designed to help headaches and sore throats has helped me muchly.

My ears still fell all blocked up, like they need to pop or something, but thankfully nothing really hurts anymore. I woke up this morning with a really sore throat, which seemed attached to my inner ear, giving me a sharp pain every time I coughed. Now that that is taken care of it's much easier to function. I'm teaching for most of this week so I'll just have to keep taking the medicine and hope it helps. I think I'll end up having another early night tonight and hope it leaves quickly.

My appetite has been kind of finicky because I'm not feeling so good. I have a little of the stew left, I will try and choke it down later. I really want some more oranges, but getting them would mean walking over to the store and it's cold and dark outside so I'm not thrilled at the prospect. Japan doesn't change their clocks, so it's been getting dark really early and is now pitch outside.

I saw 110.0kg this morning, soooo cloooossseeee to a new decade.

Monday, November 10, 2008

Gah

About 2:30 I started feeling kind of bad, like there was pressure building up in my ears, and my throat felt kind of off. I finished up some lesson prep for tomorrow to distract me and make the time go faster. The pressure built to a pounding headache that I staggered home with after work was done. When I got in I had some water and changed into my plushy dressing gown. I added a few gravy granules to my crock pot to thicken the stew up and ate two (little, rice) bowls of it, before finally caving and taking some Tylenol for for my head. I am now waiting for it to kick in.

I have a bag of satsumas, I have just had one for dessert and I will nurse the others for the rest of the evening, hopefully the shot of vitamin C will help to kick whatever this is away.

I'm so close to just crawling into bed now, but given that it's 17:16 I'll just be awake come 3am if I do. The moment it's not entirely pathetic I am crashing.

Ow. I want these pills to kick in dammit.

Edit: One hour later and the pain is gone, but kind of hovering? It doesn't feel like someone is trying to crush my skull any more though, ahhh, sweet relief.

Not looking a gift horse in the mouth

After my last post I felt like I was really ready to go for it again. I exercised twice last week, only twice, and only WATP 1 mile, but it felt good to know that I was doing it. I mentioned that I didn't think I'd see a loss before the Christmas Challenge today, but wanted to for next week.

Turns out I was wrong.

I have been improving on my eating, primarily through just eating at home more than anything, rather than giving in to outside sources. I woke up today to check my weight so I would know the difference for next week, and it tuns out I'm down 1.4kg/3.08lbs from my low weight of 111.6kg more than a month ago. I've stepped on the scale between then and now and have always been 112.6 or something around there, slightly above my low. Today I was 110.2 and it felt nice (surprising, but nice!) to be well away from those sticking kilos. I think perhaps I was borderline with my eating and exercise and those two small workouts and eating in just pushed me over the tipping point.

Whatever the reason, I'm not about to question it too hard.

I realised last night that I probably wouldn't be able to persuade myself to leave my bed too early now that it's turned chilly, so I put my pork stew ingredients in the slow cooker before I went to bed and just set it on low. I added a little more water before I left this morning, but other than that I think it was a good idea to get it over with the night before. No way would I have had time otherwise, bed is just too warm.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Nearly 6 weeks

Is how long I've been at the same weight. I lost a large amount at the beginning of the Christmas Challenge, and then went off the rails. It is a long time to have wasted.

I did manage to stay pretty much at the same weight though (somehow, I was really surprised given how much I ate). Over the last two weeks I've been trying to eat a better (though not exactly following 'a plan' as such) but then I was on my period so I couldn't weigh in.

Today I stepped on the scale and it showed me a low number. Not a new number, but the lowest I saw back at the end of September. This is good, but still in that same kilo. I feel like if I can just break in to the next one then things will start moving properly again, so for now I'm trying to eat more carefully so that the scale can inch down. I don't think that I'll see the new number before this weeks CC weigh in, but I'm going to make a push for next week. I've neglected it too long.

I'm also thinking of sending home extra money when I get paid next month. It will make life a little more difficult for me, but have two positive effects. Firstly, I'll pay off more of my credit card before I go to Malaysia, which will be a really good idea as the chances are I will use my card while I'm there. (I'm quite excited, if I can keep a handle on my spending, which I may be able to do if my parents send me money for Christmas, then I'll only have a couple more payments to do after the next one. I could be finished paying it off by March). It will also force me to think about what I'm buying, and therefore what I'm eating, as it has this month. Cooking for myself more has been a big help and I should continue with it, I'm too likely to go the easy route and just get a store bento or something.

My slow cooker arrived a couple of days ago and it is the cutest thing. The weather took a rather enthusiastic foray into single digits for the first time yesterday, leading me to make a stew in it and, I'm ashamed to say, put on the Christmas music. My whole apartment was warm and cosy and smelt like home. I still have half the stew in the cooker nice and warm so I'm going to have it for dinner.

My new cooker!

Friday, November 7, 2008

And the results are...

It was a free EU pack I'd ordered from the Japanese council and forgotten about, plus my clothing order (which had been put into two bags).

Bleurgh, I'm getting sick. I've got a headache and my throat feels weird. Not sore, but enough to tell me something is on the way. I'm going out with friends tonight celebrate Obama's win at a yakitori place (assuming it doesn't get too bad) but aside form that I think I'm going to be a bit of a hermit this weekend.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

It's like Christmas

I came home to three notices that I had parcels waiting for me, I feel loved! I think that one of them will be the clothes I ordered a couple of weeks ago from yours, one of them might be my slow cooker from amazon.co.jp (and if it is then WOW, that was quick. I only sent them the payment yesterday), and the final one appears to be from amazon too (if I'm reading the kanji right) but I have no idea what it is. I don't remember ordering anything else?

I've just checked my amazon tracking and it says my slow cooker is still in Chiba hmmmm, the plot thickens. Unless they haven't updated the page yet? It's possible my clothes got split into three packages but I doubt it.

Argh, won't find out until it arrives between 19:00 and 21:00

I finally did the one mile WATP yesterday, for the first time in I don't know how long. I'm going to aim to do it every other day rather than every day like I used to. Maybe that will stop me from getting bored with it, or giving up when ever I have a day off.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Leftovers

I've got a curry bubbling away on the stove and some brown rice in the rice cooker. This means that tomorrow (or rather, the day after tomorrow, as the pan of curry is so big) that I'll have to go shopping and get some more food. I know grocery day is close when I make Japanese-style curry, because I only ever make it to use up all the sad, old vegetables left in my fridge and freezer. Today's remnants include half a cabbage, half a container of mushrooms, some frozen mixed vegetables, an onion, and what was left in a bag of frozen shrimp. It's a good 'get everything gone' meal.

The watch-word for my next grocery shop is cheap. To that end I have to plan what I'm making so that I don't waste cash on stuff that will hang around for days and eventually end up in the next curry I make.

I'm quite impressed with how many dinners I've managed to get out of the things I had left in my house, I was expecting to run out before now. It makes me think about how much money I spend on things like groceries when I'm not forced to watch everything carefully, it's quite surprising how much cheaper I can go and still eat reasonably well.

Nice

Guess who's surfing the Internet trying to avoid the NaNoWrMo document staring her down in the other window? That's right! You win a cookie, but I won't be offended if you pass on it.

I took some (very unflattering!) pictures of myself from the front and side yesterday to give myself some motivation to start exercising again. They're in my bra and pants, so will not be posted here, but suffice to say I spent the night feeling decidedly unpretty. They will act as my personal markers. I'm not sure when I'll update them, whether I'll go by time or weight lost, but we'll see.

Today I'm feeling good though. I'm wearing a new cardigan that I bought yesterday, and have my contacts in and makeup on. Three different teachers have complimented me on the necklace I'm wearing. Actually, one couldn't remember the word for 'style' (she wanted to say 'it gives a sense of your own style to your outfit') and ended up telling me 'it adds a certain gorgeousness' which was even better. The same teacher is also going to give me a tabletop gas ring for nabe/suki-ramen/udon because she has just bought a new version and was wondering if I wanted the old one. Given that the cold is starting to creep in I'm very much looking forward to it. When I went to the conbini to pay for the slow cooker I ordered (I can come home to finished meals! awesome! and only 1900 yen) I said good morning to the old-ish man gardening in the little wild flower area on the edge of school, on the way back he gave me a little bunch of flowers that he had cut for me. I have them sitting on my desk in a cup right now.

It's been a really nice day so far.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

Eating Out FAIL

I met up with a friend and we went to a cafe for lunch. I couldn't have refused to have anything, it would have made her feel awkward. I chose the cheapest things on the menu and feel OK about it, but tomorrow I'm going to make that when I go to the matsuri I don't eat anything.

My social life is bad for my good intentions.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Trick and Treat

I went to the party and didn't order any food from the bar (me: "Guys? If I try and buy anything tonight, punch me right in the neck"). I didn't have time to eat before I went but I had a bowl of vegetable chili and brown rice when I got home.

The night was good, I had a lot of fun, but there was an incident about an hour or so before everything ended. One of the Irish JETs who came to the party is fine to get along with when he's sober but very Jekyll and Hyde when he's drunk. We had spoken for a few minutes earlier within a small group of people and he was drunk but very nice and friendly. As the night went on he was a little worse for where and he started getting nasty. It's really bizarre to watch because it comes completely out of left field. He is charming and complimentary one second and then trying to pick a fight with the random guy standing by him the next. We spoke for a few minutes later and again almost overly friendly, until he says goodbye and turns to the girl behind him and says "She's a lesbian, she's fat and ugly, she must be a lesbian" with me standing right there. The girl (completely unimpressed) told him he can't talk about people that way and he looks at me and makes a quick exit. A few seconds later he wandered back to the group and looked at me and smiled and said 'You look beautiful tonight'. I looked at him like I had just scraped him off the bottom of my shoe and he left again. The thing about him is that I get the feeling that he thinks he can just smooth stuff over (ahh, the confidence of a drunkards charm). If we both follow the rules and pretend it never happens he'll be extra nice to me the rest of the night because he's been a dick.

I pretty much ignored him for the next hour or two, not making a point of not talking to him, just not doing it. As people started leaving I walked past where he was standing and he said "oh are you serious" half to me, half thinking out loud. I could tell he knew he was in the wrong, and he just wanted me to smile back and pretend nothing had happened and suddenly I was just so fucking angry. I had spoken to my friend about it and he's said some bad things about a few people that night. Why should I pretend? So I turned to him, fairly calm outwardly, and said "What" in a rather pointed tone. He could see I was actually still pretty angry and started to back-pedal "nothing, nothing" but I decided I was sick of this and said rather aggressively "no, do you have something to say to me?". He said no and I said "Then Shut Up" and walked away.

A girl I was chatting to later (stunning girl, so I know he's not just gunning for the fatties) told me good job on standing up to him because he had been spewing stuff to her earlier. I get so sick of people thinking that what they're saying acceptable as long as they don't get caught, or so long as the people involved are so embarrassed they're willing to sweep it under the rug.

Bah. I was of two minds whether to post this or not, so I'm disabling comments.

In other, better, news, I went to the party dressed as Dorothy from Wizard of Oz, and someone else unexpectedly came as the Wicked Witch of the West. It was completely unplanned by us and led to us getting nominated for best duo costume! Unexpected Awesomeness!